The author only put in enough crochet info to help knitters with whatever they'd need crochet- chains for ties on hats and things, single crochet for neckline edging, and crab stitch for tightening loose edges. With that, I took up my sister's old crochet hook and some scrap yarn and went for it.
My first swatch, I'm proud to say, is an utter derpy failure.
When I started realizing that things weren't going well, I decided to soldier on and get some help to make it less awkward, instead of completely giving up and starting over.
The thing is, in most areas of life, I hate failing. It's something many instructors and professors have pointed out over the years, and it's frustrating because I don't know how to get rid of this fear of failure I apparently have. It's even crippling me in theatre, which is supposed to be what I blindly pursue fearlessly.
But crafting? No problem. So far.
I have a few short knitting projects lined up after I'm done with what I'm currently working on, each with a really low chance of failure. But after that, I hope to take on my biggest thing yet- a knit dress.
It's the reason I'm hesitant to seriously attempt knitting lace. If you haven't seen a lace pattern, they're kinda nutty. I can understand every single piece of shorthand and still freak out when actually trying to make the pattern happen.
I wonder if, in spending this summer pouring all of my energy into learning new knitting skills,
it'll help me in my acting as well. It'll help me realize, eventually, that I needn't fear failure, because I can have confidence in my abilities as an artist.
I just have to, you know, be able to knit without my arm hurting.